trying to find the willpower to lose weight…
I’m going to start to blog about my quest to lose weight and get trim, flexible and strong. I’m coming out of a dark space at the moment, with being feverish, dental stuff, and low energy. And I noticed that this is not a new pattern, although I don’t record it, so I don’t know the shape of the pattern, just run away from it as fast as I can when I start emerging. Which, thankfully, is happening now.
So, I’m up earlyish, prepped for work, got some paperwork done on my projects (but I’m way behind, have to catch up when I’m off tomorrow).
I’ve noticed, on this lose weight – fitness – get healthy journey, that if I haven’t been consistent with an app or a habit, I find myself giving up. Open the app, and there are my results from 5 weeks ago. Understandably, few apps have an erase and start again button. But, I think it’s better to do that than to look at what I was doing and feel demotivated because it was so long ago.
Another thing I’ve learned is that I need to try to get to the gym to lift weights during lunch. It’s daunting – I just have an hour. But to be realistic, by the time I get to the gym after work – typically around 9:15, there are enormous guys lifting at the free weight machines that I’m supposed to use. So I end up kind of lost, trying to at least use the regular free weights, and not feeling as if I’ve done what I’m supposed to.
And since lifting feels good when I do it on a schedule, I want to get back on schedule. So, a run and yoga this morning, and I’m going to make the attempt to go to the gym at lunch, workout, shower and head back to work.
The upside is, if this works, it’s just 3 days a week. And, it also means that I can walk home after work without having to go to the gym first, or if I run this morning, I can take the train.
The point of this post is to remind myself that it’s okay to start over, and if a specific time isn’t working, try a different time.